I'm just a girl trying to figure out what the heck I'm doing and how I'm suppose to do it. I don't have all the answers..in fact there are moments I don't even know the frickin' question! But...I'm ona neverending journey of learning and growing...and sometimes screwing up big time along the way. I promise to be honest with you AND to myself. I'm ready to lay it all bare in hopes that I might sort through the pieces and find the me that's been hiding for so long...

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Random Music Musings...

Music, for me as well as many others, is kind of like my blood.  I go to sleep with a song in my head and wake with a different one on my lips.  I honestly can not drive a car, clean my house, or decorate a cake without my IPod in my ear. The instant a song starts I am assigning it to a particular memory or person. 
I can tell you exactly where I was when I first heard "The Chain of Love" by Clay Walker (East 14 on my way to my sisters house for a birthday party, in front of the house with the alien carved into the tree stump).  I can remember playing in the garage when I was little and singing "American Honky Tonk Bar Association" before I ever knew there was a real bar association.  Or finding my brothers mixed tape with Sam Kinison on one side (NOT appropriate for children!) and "Mony Mony" on the other. Patsy Cline playing on the radio while my dad cooked baby back ribs o the grill. Singing New Kids On the Block songs to the cows in the field.  I didn't listen to Garth Brook's "To Make You Feel My Love" for nearly 8 years just because it reminded me of him...and I didn't want to remember.  And I sat in my car, in my driveway, at one o'clock in the morning and cried to "I Wish You'd Stay" the day after a dear friend moved away to Orlando. There are some songs that literally reach inside me deep into my very being and make me feel like my guts are being ripped out in the most beautiful "OhmyGodthatsongsaidexactlywhatI'vebeentyingtosayforyears" kind of way. Knock me to my knees and take my breath away kind of songs...those are my favorite's!  I never see them coming!
I can't remember to mail a birthday card, but I can remember the words to a million songs...
It seems like music has honestly been the one constant in my life.  I'm not saying I've endured more than anyone else, or that I had a hard life, or that you should feel sorry for me for anything.  What I'm saying is when ever things get crazy and I feel like I'm losing my mind...all I need is a song to bring me back down a notch or two.
I've got big plans for the next few months, plans that I will share along the way. I'm sure I'll lose my temper, lose my way, maybe even lose a few pounds (PLEASE!!!!).   First things first though...time to create the playlist for my early morning me time...I'm bringing "Sexyback" you know.  ;)
Sing on friends...and if you ever have suggestions for songs that blow your mind...please share...

1 comment:

  1. Love it April!!! You and I are just a like in this. Music speaks to me so much and I have many songs that get me through tough times, remind me of a friend, or just say Oh my God, this is exactly what I'm going through right now!!! Sing on my friend! Love ya girl!

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